Missing You

I went to look at the starry sky

hoping to see you twinkling—smiling down at me.

But all I found was a cloudy filled night,

cold and empty of light,

empty of you.

My dreams are still infected

with the broken wishes I made to you

but did not have the time to keep.

Unfulfilled promises—

unachieved goals.

This is what my nightmares are made of.

I have run away from the world

to escape the shadows in my heart.

In this new barren place I’ve come to,

there are no traces— no reminders,

and you become nothing but a figment of a memory.

Here there are no singing yellow daffodils

And thus I see no ghosts of you gardening them.

Here there are no whistling tall trees

And thus I have no desire to climb them with you.

No birds flying high in the air.

(You used to want to fly with them.)

No butterflies hiding in the bushes.

(You used to find them in the flowers.)

No songs for me to hum softly in the night.

(You used to fall asleep in my arms.)

Here, in my new haven, there is nothing— nothing

because you were my everything— everything

and now that you’re gone

what is there left for me?

Now I only have the nights where

I find myself looking up

To where there should be a sky.

 I still hope to see you there

Twinkling

—smiling—

Smiling for me.
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For Elsa. I miss you <3 Je t'adore <3